FiRsT kISs ...and FuRtHer sToriEs

first kiss:

Hmmm….m flying  flying ….flying…..i feel am pretty…I feel m important…and so much important….. dis guy can stand for hours just to meet me……if I don’t reply to him…den…I can see moisture in his eyes…is it a drop of tear in his eyes…..gosh!!guys cud b so sensitive….mmm…

Am I really dat important…dat special…..thank u god finally m feeling it…is it really love……I dun no…but it feels great…

Its 1:00 am morning…..my mobile was buzzing….whts dat…its him….he said….its me m standing outside ur building…I just wanna see u …can u come in to ur balcony….plz…..!!!

Woooohooooo!! Menh!!  He is really der…oh my god!! He is der….just to see me!!

I love him …I love him…..mwah muwah…!!.....so m standing in my balcony….n few exchange of flying kisses…

Nice it was!!

Next day I went at his place….winters were never so pretty…this fog ….and d yellow light from street light trying to make out its way but eventually mixing up with d fog ….it seems as if a golden cloud is walking on road…..!!!oh such a pathetic description….but wht ever m in luv it seems  as if I  started poetry…i  guess!!

I am at his place ….tall guy he is!!after an hour I was leaving….

He came with me to the door….n  n….n….n …he holds my arm…I was freezed….he kissed me…..n I was ….just blank…..after few seconds I came back in my senses ….oh I just got a kiss …quite wet it was…(gilli gilli kissy!!yuks…baad main realize hua)….but it  has turned my world  360 degree…I dun no I was happy or super happy

But first time I was actually feeling bit shy….not bit …but very much shy…..was blushing actually!!

I didn’t look at him….he hugged me…n smiled…kissed on my forehead…then also I wasn’t able to see him….i went…back home…..riding my scooty ….zzoooonnnnn zooon….waving on road…..ppl must b considering me mad…who cares anyway...but I was….happy….very happy,…..n excited….my first kiss….

I wanna share this….kis ko btaun kiss ka kissa!!

Chessy line!!.....nisha…yes I will tell her …..dat evening itself I told her……but she frowned and said I nvr expected this from you!!(she use to think I was typical sanskari naari….but now m sins-kaari)

Hain??i thout….whats wrong in it….i didn’t said anything n went home…bit upset...n while driving I decided… I wont tell it to nyone……how could anything which makes u so  happy could be bad…or unethical…or against ur upbringing or sanskaar..is expressing ur love is wrong…expressing it in physical terms…whts wrong? My small brain dun tk stress ..u will get d answer one day!!….kissing is not bad…not at all bad…its good….look m so happy…..y is it considered wrong…..hw it cud be wrong ……I wont call it as a pleasure…trust me it was lovely ..

First date:

Date or meeting….i don’t know what to call it…..i dun like hving dates in sum food joint…I like home dates

 Actually I always thout to hv a date like dis….i dun no m jus njoying whole process……m waiting for him….he likes black ….i wore his fav dress…

I cooked for him…I decorated my room with candles…I just love this yellow light….candles adds romance isn’t it….

And he was here…

He was very happy to see all dat….we danced….we sang…together….n icecream…..yes d icecream…

And we made love!!

Again same question….why is it a taboo…I dun wanna call it sex…its so dry…d word has no essence to it….making luv add beauty to it….isnt it!!.....its simply beautiful….wen m holding  his hands they r big…bigger den my palm…his fingres…moist dey were…his chest…so broad….sumtimes I think y god gave men such a huge size….i think to protect….to show care n affection….a promise of assurance dat he is there….for me always …to luv me..to protect me…!!m jus half of his size ……

I think physical love is just expression of  emotional love….this is sacred isn’t it…..?...sumthing so beautiful cant be a sin…sumthing which mk ppl so close cant be  sin..

I think as it is said “magic is never black or white …its our intentions which changes its colour”…its sacred at least for me…or for all who believe in love!!

Next day morning:

U kno d world best amazing feeling ….when u wake up in morning  u find ur partner just beside u…..yuppieee!!!

He is still der…..dat night was real for sure….

Sometimes I think why beauty is confined to jus women….men hv their share of beauty too…..look at those eyes…bud shaped long beautiful eyes…..big ,calm face as if lord buddha is sleeping….in its mahaparinirvan posture……

Well y der r no poetries regarding men beauty….no one appreciate their  looks….as women r appreciated….i think bcz of womens so called lazza wala scene….or women were not allowed to express…..bloody men’s world…dey dun no wht they hv lost….

Well not the rite time to abuse men’s world…I found my man frm der itself….

I dun no ….y m blushing m feeling my feminism now….m feeling  m feeling m a female…a women…sumthing different….

College time struggle....

Hi!!  everyone.... this is my second post ...i hope u will connect with it ....plz motivate me write a comment ...tell me my mistakes.....or just a hi!!...happy reading anyways...

          Being in co-ed  school ,i never found myself different then boys....or i can say the sharp distinction between man and a woman was never clear to me ....atleast at that point of time.....

I was always chill....bubbly ....happy go lucky types ...laughing n playing all around....ppl use to consider me cool ...carefree...person....but i know i was deep....n these things were just surficial...

School time i was struggling with my looks....wanna shed some kilos...i too want to have a bf...

Love was a  big word....but i want a bf ...for show off business...exactly no...not for show off but yes to feel the same things as others were feeling......or u can say i want to experience love.....sounds romantic!!!isn’t it!!

Schools  were over....now in college.....Menh!! i hated my college....idiot ppl....least abusive word i can think of....else gaaliyan mujhe or bhi aati hain....

This was the first time when i realised am a female” and the seniors were giving a detail lecture ...how female should behave and that to these seniors were MALE.....i mean they better know how female shud behave ....how sick!!

Anyways i was fat enough thats why neither good guys nor bad guys were interested in me....as if i care!!(well.....i do care...i nvr get it ...wht guys r looking for ..those ugly bitches....have so many bf’s n i have none...)so a big question...what guys like??

Anyways who cares....chlo i started dieting  now.....n walking

After 1months....

M pretty much excited ...1 month i didn’t hv roti at all only dal....i must hv shed a lot ...for sure...lets see...

I will measure my weight.....today it gonna be a big day for me...

Lets see....5:30 pm.....m walking walking n walking......here is the clinic....i will measure my weight  now........wht the hell.....72kg...........look at the doctor ...he is giving me disgusting looks n he said 20 kg kam kro....hw fat u r,...

Kutta.....narak m jalega kamina....isse kya ptta ek mahine se meri lagi paddi h....

Aaj m sab khaungi...jo milega wo khaungi...m so upset,....1 mahiney ki mehnat or koi fark nhi pdda

I will eat....eat eat n eat...

I was really upset n was planning to have roadside snacks ...that i haven’t had for a month....but i was so upset dat i sat under a tree which was near to a jain temple wht we call it jinalay...

There a bhoppu...a loudspeaker was hanging...i think some katha was going on nearby...suddenly...the baba who was telling the katha said.....”prunn k saath pariksha aati h” i.e. with pledge or commitment ... a test or examination  follows it to know its certainity...and to examine ur commitment level.....this pariksha cud be nything ....not necessary the main one

For eg :u wanna wake up early then ...ppl may disturb ur sleep dat night...but still if u get up at scheduled time u will pass the examination...n then god will help u every whr

But initially he will test u

....well after hearing this i understood his ...d almighty msg...n continued with my plan....

After2 months:

Wow....i lost 15 kgs......thankyou god!!!i made it!!

After effects of being sexy.....

Now ppl call me “Maal”......earlier moti....Fatso...etc etc....

Anyways i m not considered as a human being...

Now ppl judge me by my figure....my bra size or my butts....still  after bhains ....haathi...gaindi...moti....now i m maal...item...but  not a human being...

Every other guy was falling in love with me....

Those eyes n those looks....dat were flaunted towards me were really scary....now i felt ... m a women.....n trust me m not feeling good!!

Not at all....atleast earlier ppl use to like me bcz of my jolly nature....or by my behaviour ...they were my frnds....n now.....as if i m a piece of new flesh in d market....m not feeling good.

I want my frnds ....i dun want jealousy of my gf’s....i dun wanna compete....

My male frnds always loved me...cared for me...always seen me as a kid...but now dey were changing....dat fatherly affection ...i was missing

Anyways good thing about it....i got a guy....the best looking guy of my class....

I want to hide this relationship.....but feeling great finally i hv sumbdy ...sumbdy finally showing dat romantic love i desired....

RIGHT  vs  WRONG { EXTRAMARITAL AFFAIR}

Sometimes the line between right n wrong becomes so blur...........its hard to find out....harder to decide...n hardest to move out.....

Broken ...shattered....i was trying to reassemble myself after a 5yr long relationship....in search of some worth...trying to gain my lost confidence....i was struggling....no job ...no  figure.....n no relationship..!!!what else u expect to have in ur life........

Anyways  friends the real strength  are always there to help u !! and i was the lucky one there....

In a store i met him.....grey hair.....short heighted ....bit plump.....he smiled n i don’t know what happened ...we started talking.....why he is here ...n so.... we exchanged numbers.....n dats it....

After a month or so....i got a call ...an international call.....from germany....”hey this is paul....u r frnd ...met u once if u remember?

Goshhh!! Seriously somebody called me from germany....ohhh the same guy.....20 yr older then me...having family ...lives in germany and he called me strange!!isnt it...!!

First time when i talked to him ...he told me he is separated.......but dat was on philosophical level....will explain it later....

His international calls were showing that i m important....important for him.....n reasons are still not known....

Well......he was impressed ....but for what reason.....

From minutes to hours ...hours to days....days to week..n week turned into months..........2^nd week  when we were talking he said he had fallen for me....n i was blank....seriously? just in few weeks.....a man who is 20 yr older than me....married in a better different environment.....n he has fallen for me....in his words” i m not in my teens ...i exactly know ...what i feel....”

True!!

But m not in my teens either..... 

I don’t want to wreck somebody  home....family...

I m in dilemma....coz dis is d man who is really dignified ...respectful...respectful towards me...who treats me like  a lady....who really cares what i want....what i needed.....he really cares for me....i felt important....important as a person.....m needed.......no male ego...no  nonsense ....simple flow of feelings......liberated....from every bondage.....n it was such a heart to heart connection dat i felt....n doesn’t wanna lose him....

But morally....is it right... no!!

According to society norms is it right....no!!

So how to avoid this force which is dragging me there...though i know...its not d same feeling..dat i use to have.....but something very positive......

What should i do now....go with the flow....or  take the right decision

Its not about having him physically but mentally emotionally he was with me.....m i snatching him from his family.....though he is not going away from his responsibilities ...but he want me....

We were talking talking and talking......full day....morning ...evening.....when ever he use to get time....discussing those things which i hardly understand....still we were talking....

He love his wife i kno that ...he himself accepts that ...true it is but love is buried because of ego....taking each other for granted....

One more thing ...something which is very small...how people make it so big that it overshadow everything else....

He is not sleeping with his wife for past 10 yrs coz he snor which disturbs his wife,,,,,

And he got so conscious because of this he do not sleep in flights...everytime when we talk he always mention it....

I use to think lovers...HUSBAnd wife make each other complete...accept each other....but  if yourpartner becomes reason for your complexes then....

Well.....

Its been two months ....i never thought we will ever meet but we did....

My train got late....5 hrs ....he waited for me...he waited on platform...tooo.....for 2 hrs...ppl were spitting ....and Mr. firangi who is just not use to of it.....was enjoying the incredible india’s ambience......another reason to fall for him!!

Things are generally very easy to understand but human mind make it so complex...so ugly

I met him .....and his friend....ceo of a big company........seems he was interested in me ....i got that feeling.....vikas(d guy) too got that feeling...

Interested seriously or he considered me a slut.....coz if i can sleep with one i can sleep with another one as well.....

I cant explain why i am with him,.....but it doesn’t mean i am available to all...well how sick people mentality is....

Slowly steadily .....clouds of doubt are moving away...m moving towards him....started feeling for him....very strongly....i love him...yes i do!!

Again falling in love....beautiful it is.....

Grooming Tips....GeT..REaDy FoR a RoCkInG PaRtY!!!

hello ....frnds!!! My new blog is about some good look tips which are self tried...i hope it will be helpful to u people....

Before  D DAy:

• Clean ur teeth : using edible soda mix it with tooth paste and apply it....atmost once a week in a month....not more than that ...this remedy is for those ppl whose teeths are horribly yellow...
• else use mustard oil mix it with salt massag ur teeth with ur fingure for a month u will definitely get the results..
• before going to the party plz take care of ur oral health....brush ur teeth ...try n use dant kanti powder by patanjli....

FOR FACE:

• remember the rule CTM: cleaning,tonning and moisturizing...every night!!
• clean and moisturized face makes make up look good at u...so go for a home clean up..n keep moisturizing ur face
• for a week add a glass of juice and milk to ur diet ...eat less of spices n watch the glow !! on ur face
• In case of heavy pimples plz try ozone treatment its quite beneficial n with in 2 to 3 sittings u will get the results

MAKE UP:

• after clean up:-
• moisturizer Lakme peach....good for summers as it is thin 
• concealer if required...else not mandatory to apply it ....ur work can be done with the help of foundation as well
• use  lakme  transparent foundation...apply it evenly on face n neck..
• apply kajal on the upper lid of ur eyes
• apply nude shade ...or peach gloss on ur lips....make dem look sexy as well as classy....

wear ur dress plz chk it thoroughly ...chk ur ears ...ur nose n then after wearing shoes ...step out of ur house....

Why KANYAKUMARI is better than GOA!!!

Heloooo!!! ppl this is Ms.KEy who is new to this blogging world ....but i think this is d best place to express my ideas....experiences  to ppl at large who r similar to me or not so similar to me...So here m providing u an experience of my life ...a beautiful family trip ...n the conclusion dat i made out of it...So read it connect wid it and drop ur suggestion as well.....happy reading!!





        Well We(me n my family ) started our journey from delhi n reached chennai in 2 hrs..nxt day...from there we took train to kanyakumari ....n finally we were there ......d beautifulplace known as kanyakumari....the point when i step out of d train ,.....trust me railway station was really nice a small railway station no bridges n a nice weather ....wind was roaring n a complete pleasant atmosphere one can observe....No wonder its definitely a spritual place!!

Nxt day we visited this place....some of the important place to visit were :-

• kanyakumari ji's mandir
• Sangam(tri meeting point of seas)
• Vivekanand Rock Memorial
• Gandhi Memorial
• sunset point(kovalam beach)

kanyakumari's temple was rejuvenating....plz visit this temple around 11:00am to12:00am..u can see her shringaar(decoration or make up)

Now my favorite place Sangam................its completely beautiful ..i dont hv words to explain wht i felt there....water was blue n clean ....waves which were splashing on big stones.....n giving u a small shower.....sand was shining....and THE WINDS.........they so fresh....u will forget everything no stress...no tension...only peace n well being ...Iwant to stay here iwant to stay here!!!trust me u dont feel like to hv beer at dat place ....u will feel so pleasant in laps of nature...

well,the third place rock memorial....there is a temple of vivekananda and a small corridor around that temple ...plz plz visit dat place ...leave aal ur mobile phones n selfies love.....just enjoy d sight n feel d strength n yet soothing winds of dat place sit there n just hv a feeelllllll of dat place.....

I sat for 2 hours dere ....my skin got tan but i didnt feel it i enjoyed d very movement ....n i realised why vivekananda chose dat place for  his sadhna n y he got salvation there......a complete bliss!!!

PLZ PLz use lots of sunscreen when u r visiting south India....!!!

Do taste pineapple of kanyakumari dey r out of dis world n cheap!!

SUNSET POINT: finally the last destination Kovalam beach famous as sunset point..............the place i want to live my rest of life d kovalam beach

            D best part of it was the waves of this beach use to fall once forward n again backward...u will feel d wave twice.......because of sunset the water level slowly rises n u will see sun slowly slowly moving deep in to the see.....dis place is untouched....d water is crystal clean....shining blue,....n such a pleasant place...where all ur misery ...pain...stress will die out.....n wht will remain is absolute peace....!!!!
     If there is heaven on earth its kanyakumari......!!!
 Goa's beach r not as beautiful as of kanyakumari ...its ok party purpose but for wholesome experience do come to kanyakumari.......