RIGHT  vs  WRONG { EXTRAMARITAL AFFAIR}

Sometimes the line between right n wrong becomes so blur...........its hard to find out....harder to decide...n hardest to move out.....

Broken ...shattered....i was trying to reassemble myself after a 5yr long relationship....in search of some worth...trying to gain my lost confidence....i was struggling....no job ...no  figure.....n no relationship..!!!what else u expect to have in ur life........

Anyways  friends the real strength  are always there to help u !! and i was the lucky one there....

In a store i met him.....grey hair.....short heighted ....bit plump.....he smiled n i don’t know what happened ...we started talking.....why he is here ...n so.... we exchanged numbers.....n dats it....

After a month or so....i got a call ...an international call.....from germany....”hey this is paul....u r frnd ...met u once if u remember?

Goshhh!! Seriously somebody called me from germany....ohhh the same guy.....20 yr older then me...having family ...lives in germany and he called me strange!!isnt it...!!

First time when i talked to him ...he told me he is separated.......but dat was on philosophical level....will explain it later....

His international calls were showing that i m important....important for him.....n reasons are still not known....

Well......he was impressed ....but for what reason.....

From minutes to hours ...hours to days....days to week..n week turned into months..........2^nd week  when we were talking he said he had fallen for me....n i was blank....seriously? just in few weeks.....a man who is 20 yr older than me....married in a better different environment.....n he has fallen for me....in his words” i m not in my teens ...i exactly know ...what i feel....”

True!!

But m not in my teens either..... 

I don’t want to wreck somebody  home....family...

I m in dilemma....coz dis is d man who is really dignified ...respectful...respectful towards me...who treats me like  a lady....who really cares what i want....what i needed.....he really cares for me....i felt important....important as a person.....m needed.......no male ego...no  nonsense ....simple flow of feelings......liberated....from every bondage.....n it was such a heart to heart connection dat i felt....n doesn’t wanna lose him....

But morally....is it right... no!!

According to society norms is it right....no!!

So how to avoid this force which is dragging me there...though i know...its not d same feeling..dat i use to have.....but something very positive......

What should i do now....go with the flow....or  take the right decision

Its not about having him physically but mentally emotionally he was with me.....m i snatching him from his family.....though he is not going away from his responsibilities ...but he want me....

We were talking talking and talking......full day....morning ...evening.....when ever he use to get time....discussing those things which i hardly understand....still we were talking....

He love his wife i kno that ...he himself accepts that ...true it is but love is buried because of ego....taking each other for granted....

One more thing ...something which is very small...how people make it so big that it overshadow everything else....

He is not sleeping with his wife for past 10 yrs coz he snor which disturbs his wife,,,,,

And he got so conscious because of this he do not sleep in flights...everytime when we talk he always mention it....

I use to think lovers...HUSBAnd wife make each other complete...accept each other....but  if yourpartner becomes reason for your complexes then....

Well.....

Its been two months ....i never thought we will ever meet but we did....

My train got late....5 hrs ....he waited for me...he waited on platform...tooo.....for 2 hrs...ppl were spitting ....and Mr. firangi who is just not use to of it.....was enjoying the incredible india’s ambience......another reason to fall for him!!

Things are generally very easy to understand but human mind make it so complex...so ugly

I met him .....and his friend....ceo of a big company........seems he was interested in me ....i got that feeling.....vikas(d guy) too got that feeling...

Interested seriously or he considered me a slut.....coz if i can sleep with one i can sleep with another one as well.....

I cant explain why i am with him,.....but it doesn’t mean i am available to all...well how sick people mentality is....

Slowly steadily .....clouds of doubt are moving away...m moving towards him....started feeling for him....very strongly....i love him...yes i do!!

Again falling in love....beautiful it is.....