Saturday, January 7, 2017

FiRsT kISs ...and FuRtHer sToriEs

first kiss:
Hmmm….m flying  flying ….flying…..i feel am pretty…I feel m important…and so much important….. dis guy can stand for hours just to meet me……if I don’t reply to him…den…I can see moisture in his eyes…is it a drop of tear in his eyes…..gosh!!guys cud b so sensitive….mmm…

Am I really dat important…dat special…..thank u god finally m feeling it…is it really love……I dun no…but it feels great…
Its 1:00 am morning…..my mobile was buzzing….whts dat…its him….he said….its me m standing outside ur building…I just wanna see u …can u come in to ur balcony….plz…..!!!
Woooohooooo!! Menh!!  He is really der…oh my god!! He is der….just to see me!!
I love him …I love him…..mwah muwah…!!.....so m standing in my balcony….n few exchange of flying kisses…
Nice it was!!
Next day I went at his place….winters were never so pretty…this fog ….and d yellow light from street light trying to make out its way but eventually mixing up with d fog ….it seems as if a golden cloud is walking on road…..!!!oh such a pathetic description….but wht ever m in luv it seems  as if I  started poetry…i  guess!!
I am at his place ….tall guy he is!!after an hour I was leaving….
He came with me to the door….n  n….n….n …he holds my arm…I was freezed….he kissed me…..n I was ….just blank…..after few seconds I came back in my senses ….oh I just got a kiss …quite wet it was…(gilli gilli kissy!!yuks…baad main realize hua)….but it  has turned my world  360 degree…I dun no I was happy or super happy
But first time I was actually feeling bit shy….not bit …but very much shy…..was blushing actually!!
I didn’t look at him….he hugged me…n smiled…kissed on my forehead…then also I wasn’t able to see him….i went…back home…..riding my scooty ….zzoooonnnnn zooon….waving on road…..ppl must b considering me mad…who cares anyway...but I was….happy….very happy,…..n excited….my first kiss….
I wanna share this….kis ko btaun kiss ka kissa!!
Chessy line!!.....nisha…yes I will tell her …..dat evening itself I told her……but she frowned and said I nvr expected this from you!!(she use to think I was typical sanskari naari….but now m sins-kaari)
Hain??i thout….whats wrong in it….i didn’t said anything n went home…bit upset...n while driving I decided… I wont tell it to nyone……how could anything which makes u so  happy could be bad…or unethical…or against ur upbringing or sanskaar..is expressing ur love is wrong…expressing it in physical terms…whts wrong? My small brain dun tk stress ..u will get d answer one day!!….kissing is not bad…not at all bad…its good….look m so happy…..y is it considered wrong…..hw it cud be wrong ……I wont call it as a pleasure…trust me it was lovely ..
First date:
Date or meeting….i don’t know what to call it…..i dun like hving dates in sum food joint…I like home dates
 Actually I always thout to hv a date like dis….i dun no m jus njoying whole process……m waiting for him….he likes black ….i wore his fav dress…
I cooked for him…I decorated my room with candles…I just love this yellow light….candles adds romance isn’t it….
And he was here…
He was very happy to see all dat….we danced….we sang…together….n icecream…..yes d icecream…
And we made love!!
Again same question….why is it a taboo…I dun wanna call it sex…its so dry…d word has no essence to it….making luv add beauty to it….isnt it!!.....its simply beautiful….wen m holding  his hands they r big…bigger den my palm…his fingres…moist dey were…his chest…so broad….sumtimes I think y god gave men such a huge size….i think to protect….to show care n affection….a promise of assurance dat he is there….for me always …to luv me..to protect me…!!m jus half of his size ……
I think physical love is just expression of  emotional love….this is sacred isn’t it…..?...sumthing so beautiful cant be a sin…sumthing which mk ppl so close cant be  sin..
I think as it is said “magic is never black or white …its our intentions which changes its colour”…its sacred at least for me…or for all who believe in love!!

Next day morning:
U kno d world best amazing feeling ….when u wake up in morning  u find ur partner just beside u…..yuppieee!!!
He is still der…..dat night was real for sure….
Sometimes I think why beauty is confined to jus women….men hv their share of beauty too…..look at those eyes…bud shaped long beautiful eyes…..big ,calm face as if lord buddha is sleeping….in its mahaparinirvan posture……
Well y der r no poetries regarding men beauty….no one appreciate their  looks….as women r appreciated….i think bcz of womens so called lazza wala scene….or women were not allowed to express…..bloody men’s world…dey dun no wht they hv lost….
Well not the rite time to abuse men’s world…I found my man frm der itself….

I dun no ….y m blushing m feeling my feminism now….m feeling  m feeling m a female…a women…sumthing different….

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