College time struggle....

Hi!!  everyone.... this is my second post ...i hope u will connect with it ....plz motivate me write a comment ...tell me my mistakes.....or just a hi!!...happy reading anyways...

          Being in co-ed  school ,i never found myself different then boys....or i can say the sharp distinction between man and a woman was never clear to me ....atleast at that point of time.....

I was always chill....bubbly ....happy go lucky types ...laughing n playing all around....ppl use to consider me cool ...carefree...person....but i know i was deep....n these things were just surficial...

School time i was struggling with my looks....wanna shed some kilos...i too want to have a bf...

Love was a  big word....but i want a bf ...for show off business...exactly no...not for show off but yes to feel the same things as others were feeling......or u can say i want to experience love.....sounds romantic!!!isn’t it!!

Schools  were over....now in college.....Menh!! i hated my college....idiot ppl....least abusive word i can think of....else gaaliyan mujhe or bhi aati hain....

This was the first time when i realised am a female” and the seniors were giving a detail lecture ...how female should behave and that to these seniors were MALE.....i mean they better know how female shud behave ....how sick!!

Anyways i was fat enough thats why neither good guys nor bad guys were interested in me....as if i care!!(well.....i do care...i nvr get it ...wht guys r looking for ..those ugly bitches....have so many bf’s n i have none...)so a big question...what guys like??

Anyways who cares....chlo i started dieting  now.....n walking

After 1months....

M pretty much excited ...1 month i didn’t hv roti at all only dal....i must hv shed a lot ...for sure...lets see...

I will measure my weight.....today it gonna be a big day for me...

Lets see....5:30 pm.....m walking walking n walking......here is the clinic....i will measure my weight  now........wht the hell.....72kg...........look at the doctor ...he is giving me disgusting looks n he said 20 kg kam kro....hw fat u r,...

Kutta.....narak m jalega kamina....isse kya ptta ek mahine se meri lagi paddi h....

Aaj m sab khaungi...jo milega wo khaungi...m so upset,....1 mahiney ki mehnat or koi fark nhi pdda

I will eat....eat eat n eat...

I was really upset n was planning to have roadside snacks ...that i haven’t had for a month....but i was so upset dat i sat under a tree which was near to a jain temple wht we call it jinalay...

There a bhoppu...a loudspeaker was hanging...i think some katha was going on nearby...suddenly...the baba who was telling the katha said.....”prunn k saath pariksha aati h” i.e. with pledge or commitment ... a test or examination  follows it to know its certainity...and to examine ur commitment level.....this pariksha cud be nything ....not necessary the main one

For eg :u wanna wake up early then ...ppl may disturb ur sleep dat night...but still if u get up at scheduled time u will pass the examination...n then god will help u every whr

But initially he will test u

....well after hearing this i understood his ...d almighty msg...n continued with my plan....

After2 months:

Wow....i lost 15 kgs......thankyou god!!!i made it!!

After effects of being sexy.....

Now ppl call me “Maal”......earlier moti....Fatso...etc etc....

Anyways i m not considered as a human being...

Now ppl judge me by my figure....my bra size or my butts....still  after bhains ....haathi...gaindi...moti....now i m maal...item...but  not a human being...

Every other guy was falling in love with me....

Those eyes n those looks....dat were flaunted towards me were really scary....now i felt ... m a women.....n trust me m not feeling good!!

Not at all....atleast earlier ppl use to like me bcz of my jolly nature....or by my behaviour ...they were my frnds....n now.....as if i m a piece of new flesh in d market....m not feeling good.

I want my frnds ....i dun want jealousy of my gf’s....i dun wanna compete....

My male frnds always loved me...cared for me...always seen me as a kid...but now dey were changing....dat fatherly affection ...i was missing

Anyways good thing about it....i got a guy....the best looking guy of my class....

I want to hide this relationship.....but feeling great finally i hv sumbdy ...sumbdy finally showing dat romantic love i desired....